A Poem That Resonates Through The Years

If you follow my blog you know I have MDD (Major Depressive Disorder) The following poem is one I wrote on June 5, 2007 and it still resonates deeply with me. I know that I am truly blessed, and I don’t understand why I’m still depressed.  I wish that I could make you see that I…

Thankful

…that it is Friday. This short week has felt extra long The ocean is reflecting the state of my soul It has lost it’s calm, churning and raging against itself Punishing the sand as it crashes onto the shore The sun shining is meaningless as the ocean wages an internal war There’s no telling when…

Early Morning Tears

What does it mean when I wake up and almost immediately feel the tears coming on? Depression? Yes. But is it more?  Am I simply incapable of being grateful for what I have, of accepting my life for what it is, or am I incapable of being truly happy?  It’s stupid.  Everyone is capable of…

Stuck Inside My Skull

“Stuck Inside My Skull” sounds so ominous doesn’t it?! Well, some days it is ominous – foreboding, threatening, inauspicious – rumbling like waves against the sand, the thoughts in my head.  And when I get stuck inside my head, it’s generally my depression talking.  It has been on the rough side lately, for no particular…

Stuck In Muddy Waters

Those of you who follow my blog (and read my posts) know that I have been struggling since my accident.  I was cranking out my wire wrapped jewelry like a pro, writing blog posts about my process and feeling really good about chasing my dreams of being a full-time artist.  Since the accident I have had…

Forever Friends

Ever since my accident I have been totally unmotivated to create new pieces.  I have also struggled with writing new posts.  I guess the accident kind of turned my world upside down, literally and figuratively.  I’ve read some really great posts by bloggers I follow, which make me want to write, to express myself, to…

On Getting By

Let me start this post by declaring a few things.  I am truly grateful for all of the things I have in my life – amazing parents, a wonderful fiancé, a nice place to live, food to eat, good friends and my pets.  I am also grateful to be employed when so many others cannot…